It is easy to look back, self-indulgently, feeling pleasantly sorry for oneself and saying I didn''t have this and I didn''t have that. But it is only the grown woman regretting the hardships of a little girl who never thought they were hardships at all.
naraz ku ho hum se kis bat pe ho rothe acha chalo ye mana tum sache hum hi jhote
kab tak chupao ge tum?
hum se ho piyar kerte
gusse ka hai dikhawa dil mai ho hum pe marte
I felt ashamed for what I had done.
I don''t have any excuses.
I did what I did.
I take full responsibility for myself and my actions.
I wouldn''t pawn this off on anybody.
I''m sorry it happened.
And I hurt people.
I''m not supposed to love you,
I''m not supposed to care,
I''m not supposed to live my life wishing you were there.
I''m not supposed to wonder where you are
or what you do...
I''m sorry I can''t help myself,
I''m in love with you.”
